It's Time

     It's time to grow up, become a woman. I have enlisted in the Air National Guard. I will being going to basic in San Antonio, TX. Then off to college at Fairmont State University. After that, grad school to get my Ph.D in Psychology. I am looking forward to the future because I know it holds great memories and accomplishments. I have changed and realized that I need to be more mature and more independent. I can't wait to go to college and study Psychology and Sociology. Plus I will be with the man I love. My future is a bright one and I'm going to let it SHINE.

"Confessions of a Whore" A poem by me

1) Hush, hush
Said the little girl
For you have to keep my secrets quiet

5) Not enough
For the whole world
To know you are a harlot

Done wrong
10) Again in my heart
For he will know nothing at all

Before long
The words will part
15) And a match will strike with ethanol

Because hush, hush
Said the little girl
For you didn't keep my secrets quite    


1-27-13

Don't Come Running Back

     "Don't you dare remember me once you start forgetting her."-Anon. I recently started living by this quote because I am tired of guys letting me down all the time. I also enlisted in the Air National Guard to start my new life. You had your chance with me years ago and you come back when I am happily in love. Now you have a girlfriend and flip out when I say "hi" to you because your girlfriend doesn't want you talking to me. Well you know what have a good life without me and don't come back because I am a much stronger person without/than you.

Sever Your Ties

     In the past couple days I have learn real from fake, true friends from pretenders and it has made me realize that it's not me doing wrong but me doing me. If you don't like me then sorry not my problem. If you don't support my beliefs and ideas then keep walking. If you don't support me that's fine because I have a pretty strong backbone. I wasn't put on this planet to please you. If you can't accept me more me and let me be who I wan't to be then get to stepping because I don't have time for your fake and immature bullshit. I am ready to finally be me and be proud of who I am and what I believe and if you can't handle that then oh well. Sever your ties because I have and life is so much better.

Low

     When you feel like ending everything but know how it will affect everyone else. I don't want to go back to old habits but I'm falling slowly back to them. I could never be what you want me to be. It's calling my name....

Just Want You To Know

     It's my fault. My mistake. I'm sorry for your heartbreak. I'm sorry for everything I put you though. I'm sorry I loved you. I'm sorry I'm not the person you want.

Waiting Outside the Lines

You'll never enjoy your life,
living inside the box
You're so afraid of taking chances,
how you gonna reach the top?

Rules and regulations,
force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation,
it's time for you to seize the day

Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now.

Live your life and be free. With or without me. I'll always be here if you need me. I want the best for you. I want you happy. I love you from the bottom of my heart. If situations were different you know you'd be the one but I'm happy with who I have. So be free and be happy.